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now what?can anyone get more confused than i am right now?what am i thinking?ofcourse someone can,like the catholic doctor asked to 'take' a patient's life to save him from the throngs of advanced cancer.Said doctor watched his only son,12years only,waste away from said disease.Though doctor longed to ease the boys pain,was willing to incur the wrath of his christian God,wife couldnot let him.I forgot to mention that,said doctor's wife is a staunch believer in God the almighty.Her religion(jehovah's witness)does not allow for blood transfusion.she WILL NOT let said doctor(her husband)put the boy through greater pain,of the eternal kind...Said doctor's wife has only one child,said 12 year old boy on the hospital bed wasting away.And when you are near them,you can smell the acrid smell of pain.you can feel it like a rash hell you can almost taste it.It chokes you up and you can barely breathe.looking at them i weep i bowl out...from within of course because i am ashamed that i am confused about when to hand in my course work.I am ashamed because i am complaining about how bright the light is in my room!Can i get more sordid?They pray and i blush.