Letter to me

Dear Anne,
how have you been of late?I am sorry it's been a while.You know the days have flown with out me noticing and it would have scared and bored you even stressed you if i had been in touch everyday.I know what you want despite the fact that you do not think i do.
you want to be loved,and i love you.you want to enjoy life,and you are .You want things to go easy for you and you want me to want you and i want you...you,my love need to put your fear aside.You need to open your heart,your heart is open-to love others but you need to let it open to let others love you...and love you wholly.
When you love someone,your heart is wide and little red heart shapes flow from it and you care and you listen,and you console and you are strong for people.You need to allow me to do that for you.Showing your mortality to me will not make me love and care for you any less.It will make me care for you better because it is difficult to care for someone who seems to have no weaknesses.
Show me your kryptonite
You overwhelm me,in a good way.If i used words besides those,it would sound too cheesy.so,you overwhelm me.I am afraid to come to you because your pride(i know you hate that word)but yes,your pride will turn me away.It is okay.It is okay to be weak sometimes,i will not ridicule you,i will not laugh.I will open my heart to you and if you trust me...i know you do,you have given me no reason to ever doubt that.so prove it to me,let me take care of you.

okay,enough of that,it is only that i did not know how else to say it.I hope you are okay,im alright.Nearly every day of this year has gone by in a whirlwind.You said that was good for you.I guess you enjoyed the pace.not sure,did you?
About not getting a job,relax ,all things in time.This i know is hard for you since you do not like to wait for anything,you should work on that,I am glad that you have decided to wait for me despite that.
I am really running out of time my love.I will get in touch with you sooner.I will not tell you to ask for whatever you want because you may not,i will instead give you what you deserve.

yours,faithfully,anne.

11/december/2007

i am desperately trying to diagnose my constant "stress"oh i hate that word.im just not happy.in a bid to re invent myself,i am throwing out all the things i have read could be leading to my un happy state.
iv given away new clothes,my cousin told me it makes u feel better,like your shading some skin.tried it,didn't work.Maybe i didn't give away enough..
tried taking care of myself,splashing money on some new items,tried but couldn't really cut that one either,don't have that much money...what next?